This Year?

Don’t you get tired with new years? I did. I mean, I didn’t mind people’s enthusiasm, it’s just that I feel quite indifferent about it. But I have to admit that I slept at eleven-isn last December 31st and I quite enjoyed it. I hope this doesn’t make me sound lousy and old – because according to this BuzzFeed entry, the situation shows what happened on New Year’s Eve when you’re 30-ish. Yep.

Anyways, it had been a while since I last did my public writings. It was indeed because of the coming home. Jakarta had been treating me with new corners to explore, coalitions to form, and courage to gather. I did do my writings elsewhere, namely a couple of journals in which I initially designated one fore each category like: provoking thoughts and another for business ideas, and another one for the creative writing ideas I would want to follow up – today, all categories have again jumbled into a number of journals that are equally active.

My time and attention have been projected to a project that hopefully could work in a couple of month. My days had been again mundane and quite domestic, I enjoyed it though. It was nice. There had been struggle in ensuring that I stay focus in what I need to do (because looking how committed I am with the journals division, I had master that issue), but yeah, we have progresses subtly but hopefully constantly.

This project – and it is one grand project consisting of numerous smaller projects I have to do to get there – is a prolonging thoughts I had had for around six years.  So it is exhilarating to finally be able to act upon these thoughts. If it fails, there goes everything I had hoped for and there goes the ideal future I had in mind. But if it fails, it’ll be okay, I’ll hit rock bottom but I can always gather the stubbornness to start over again.

So, this year, expect two things: my inconsistencies of entries (and actual natural behaviour in life) or my overwhelming activeness of it. I will try to be more focus and consistent with my entries. I promise I’ll try hard.

Happy New Year!

(Though I doubt that anyone actually read any of this, but writing it here is a great way for me to confront vulnerabilities, since  much would surface this year. To the next ramble, Cheers!)